today

I call this just today because that is where I am at. I should not be worried about yesterday or tomorrow. I am at today. It's important to live each moment at a time and not be wrapped up in what you may have failed to do or wish you could do.

I'm on an incredible journey to work on the moment. That's not to say I won't post something that I "preach" against.

Like I may say it's my goal that I am going to think positive and not negative and yet I may vent my negative frustrations out. Well, sometimes we have to.

First of all I am not going to hide the fact that I am a sufferer of an anxiety disorder and that I also have social anxiety disorder. These disorders are misunderstood by so many. There are sites and message boards for people who have these problems. I often visit these more than just a message board for people who talk about movies, etc. I do visit message boards where I do not talk about my disorders because it is not the place to speak of it or I sometimes fear what others might think.

That is not good. When a person hides the fact that they are different in some way, in a sense they don't like themselves because they think they are not good enough. They are afraid of people looking down on them. They are sometimes considered not "normal".

I have this fight myself. I know though that this is wrong thinking. I am good enough.

This society's view of what is right or wrong, "normal" is at times distorted.

Some people think you have to have a certain income, or a certain work ethic or attitude in order to be accepted as "normal".

I put that in quotes because that word is greatly misused and it needs to be defined more clearly.